DAY 32 : the goodbye in deniaL

Dear You,

even though it will only take you about three minutes to read this post, it took me more than you could ever imagined to write this, and it took me more guts than i could ever have.

i am so missing you… so so much, i missed you just like a child wants some sweet… cant accept refusal, i just want you, if you can;t be here, at least try to talk to me, try to talk to me on the phone, or at least just reply my messages,,,, that would be enough, is that too much to ask???

and now, i want to say:

goodbye

goodbye to late night awake waiting for your call

goodbye to checking mobile every split second just hoping i could see your name on the screen

Goodbye to frustration, wondering, waiting, never knowing

Goodbye to foolish wishes and dreams

Goodbye to a friendship that was destined to fail, even before it began.

Goodbye threats! WHO CARES!

Goodbye to looking for love elsewhere, and wishing I could come home to it

Goodbye to glimmer of hope’ that someday it will work out

Goodbye to pouring my heart out to you, and feeling like you just didn’t care

Goodbye to loving you – damn that’s hard to say! But there’s no point in it now, what’s the use?

IF ONLY THOSE GOODBYES WERE REAL??????

I CAN’T SAY EVEN ONE OF THOSE GOODBYE TO YOU!!!

WISH I COULD SAY GOODBYE…. so that i wont bothering your life and get on with my life. but i just can’t. Maybe you could help me?????

OOOOH… I’M in a DENIAL

what about you??? What are you in denial about???

~ by erryprasetyo on July 2, 2008.